A Day

I PASSED!!! Yay!! Enough said.

So today I got a call from home.  I'm alone here and my gran has passed away. 

Neither one has really sunk in yet, I don't feel like my mind has grasped either one of those facts.  he sun was out today, which was good. And I saw a red squirrel for he first time ever today (I took a short ride along the cycle path this afternoon)  I'm not really sure what I'm feeling.  Everyone is celebrating tonight, even those who were action-planned.  They all plan on getting insanely drunk.  I'm still going to church then I'll go and have a drink though I'm torn between wanting to celebrate this small step towards the ultimate goal (one out of three instructorr qualifications achieved) and being sad over my loss.

I know I'm blessed to have both an amazing nan and to have had an amazing gran, both of whom have been praying for me, I know, for a long, long time.  I doubt I'll ever fully appreciate how much they've done for me.  Of the days it could have happened I think this was probably a good day, it has been balanced with the insane amounts of happiness I had from having passed when I thought I'd be action-planned.  Literally I'm so happy I passed.

I still remember her saying goodbye and wishing me well on my course.